mangoes.

Time is now
past noon
 past mid-day/past dark shadows/ past palms as inviting as late night mango slices from the tree that used to grow in our back yard
the one that reminded me food was meant to be climbed for

before I became Pathmark obsessed
too much/too much/too much to choose from/too many choices to make diced/sliced/dried/canned mangoes larger than large/extra large pickled/sweetened/enriched more, more, more mango more!

puffed up mangoes with cherried middles chutneyed mangoes with glazed tops pretty mangoes - skin not bruised - GM mangoes young, untouched, virgin mangoes Mangoes large as watermelons jugs hooters perky mangoes mass production mangoes mangoes/yellow ripe mangoes peel me, peel me don’t look away, you know you want this mango mangoes that remind you of places back home but never the same
We are stronger
 Faster
Bigger
Sturdier
OUR MANGOES ARE BETTER THAN YOUR MANGOES

bully mangoes
mangoes that set standards for other mangoes mangoes
mangoes that declare war on fertile soil mangoes
mangoes with no pits
mangoes with no peels
mangoes with no insides
just mangoes
Sniff-------------------


 the essence of mangoes
all the smell and succulence of mangoes
but
no marrow mangoes
substance lacking mangoes
mangoes that want to be fruit leader mangoes
 mangoes with army brigade mangoes
mangoes with higher aspiration mangoes
genocide mangoes
homicide mangoes
suicide mangoes
mangoes on crowded buses dismembering limbs mangoes
mangoes armed with swollen triggers mangoes
self-rightgeous, self-imposing mangoes

mangoes with ALL the answers mangoes

pure mangoes
 mango puree mangoes
condensed sweetened mangoes
mangoes disguised as papaya mangoes
mangoes disguised as mamaya mangoes
mangoes following orders mangoes
 mangoes spreading pesticide mangoes
mangoes falling from tall September trees mangoes
mangoes desperate and rotting on NY stands mangoes

MANGOES, MANGOES, MANGOES FOR SALE MANGOES! mangoes for sale for dirt cheap mangoes

mangoes selling out mangoes
mangoes sailing out mangoes
mangoes mangoes mangoes mangoes and won’t ask no questions
mangoes and takes life of others
mangoes and shuts eyes
shuts doors behind him
in front of him
beside him
mangoes and won’t come back

 I say mangoes and won’t come back
mangoes and nothing is gained
just mangoes mangoes mangoes and
too many choices to make and
man goes for sale.

Speak, Woman

I am her.

 I am my mother's advice not follwed
I am the loveliness of all my mistakes and shortcomings
Which led me to the woman I am
 Today

I am the woman
Addicted to the pen
But
Unable to speak

 Silenced by stubborness I conveniently understand to be
Passiveness or
ladylike stoic

 And
can't speak up for myself

 Down the line I fill with words
I have confused politeness with
Not speaking my needs

 Speak up!
Before you become the silence
That surrounds you

 Even silent things speak
Even willows bow to the wind
Even fingers touch
And ears listen

 Mouths were meant to speak

 So open
Not just your heart
But your lips

 Woman with too much heart and too little lip
Is missing a piece of herself
 Is living for other people's sound
And not her own

 So Speak, woman, speak

Small Matter

You are
A speck of dust
Ash fading in windstorm

Neither here nor there
Disappear without notice

Nobody wishes you
Gone
Or wishes you at all

An atom
A nucleus filled to its brim
A universe encased in a shell

Inside
You are endless
Out here
The irrelevance of small things


Small matter
Invisible
Unimportant
Disposable
Expendable
Who cares?


I do.


 I am the mother that waits
The hands that wring
The scream that falls into the black hole
Of small matter


 Somewhere
You matter




 Not here.

Antaeus

Antaeus n. Greek mythology. A giant wrestler who could not be defeated as long as he remained in contact with the earth. Hercules defeated him by lifting him off the ground. 
It was Antaeus who,
 losing touch with Earth
felt his insides dying

suspended in mid-air
 everything seemed much more beautiful
even those imperfections that grew like unwanted naps in the back of the forest

had it not been for his own breath fading
he would have looked a little longer
with different eyes

not those of a child towards his mother
but those of a son to his aging accomplice

He always believed he was an entity outside of her

an individual

the ground he walked on was just dirt now,
he noticed how similar their features were
how her brown dust so much resembled his own skin
how mudcracks of drought reminded him of his own heel during the harsh season
he was so much like his mother

he wept quietly

as tears reached her
they dissolved back to the place from which he came